Change

There's a fine line entre change as evolution and just wrong direction. People change, constantly. Every minute, every second, y esta reflected on our daily lives. Pero can we really pin point a certain change as a negative change. I mean, mucho mas si no conoces el objeto del cambio previamente, como estas en la posicion de reconocer dicho cambio. And we think changing vain stuff like the coffee we take or the route we take to certain places is gonna make a difference, and it does, en enganyarnos a pensar que no vivimos el mismo dia over and over, we, some of us, are scared of monotony, others of change, but neither is good, neither is bad. A ver si me explico. If we're content with who we are we wouldnt like to change, pero theres always room for evolving and growing y Dios sabe I could use some growing up. Peeeero, do we risk conformity and integrity to obtain what we want? Como valorizamos lo que queremos, sino en comparacion con lo que we are worth to ourselves. Es absurdo, en algunos sentidos, tener que moldearnos a las circumstancias, pero only ourselves we control, to change, not the situation y pensamos que modificandonos podemos controlar el outcome de la situacion. No we cant, this whole freaking universe is a random event after another siguiendo un extranyo patron muy alejado de nosotros mismos (oxymoron i know!) with every change is like a little part of me failed. not thats ridiculous change doesnt mean failure, todo lo contrario it projects maturity, decision making..... shit. my head hurts, that id like to change. we think that if we change certain stuff we'd loose part of who we are, but reality is we'd improve.  

going back to getting what we want. change is becoming different, if we are ever becoming different beings how are we consistent of out identity, or our own beings? or if change is a constant process how do we ever change if our existence is finite and determined by time, one would have to be everlasting for change to be possible, since its not the case can we consider two events determined by an alteration in a certain aspect, really as change? i mean we could consider change in abstract thinking, es decir cambia el clima de lluvioso a soledado, cambia la temperatura de 30 a 23 grados, porque sabemos que 23 y 30 no es lo mismo, es una comparacion valida. sin embargo es mas subjetivo si hablamos de un individuo o de cualquier otro aspecto, i mean joseph used to be funny, now his dull. that's change? to what extent do i really can confirm that joseph was funny before? es una apreciacion mia y de los demas que esta determinada by our own minds in constant change, quizas no fue joseph que cambio quizas i changed and now i find him boring.

its funny how we're constantly changing yet we cant really acknowledge that, actually we're the last to find out.